by Omar Sh’theed, Hamas supporter in Gaza
Deir el Balah, October 14 – I do my duty as Palestinian and as a Muslim. My leaders tasked me with holding a Zionist settler in the cellar of my home and to keep him alive, just barely, alive enough to be used as a possible bargaining chip or human shield, but weak and demoralized enough to keep him from trying to escape. They promised me that my efforts to keep that pig-ape Jew suffering and afraid will lead directly to the paradise of a Free Palestine. Now, although I diligently perpetrate this mandated abuse every single day, I find us no closer to free Palestine.
Am I not hitting him hard enough? Starving him enough? I was admonished not to let him die. How am I supposed to know where that line is?
I would ask a doctor, but all the ones in the vicinity are busy shooting propaganda films, and tweeting.
It wasn’t supposed to end up like this. Our powerful operation last October was supposed to send the Zionists packing or at least to make them cower until we raped, enslaved, and killed them all. When our warriors brought back prisoners, I was glad to accept the responsibility of confining him and torturing him. I accepted the assumption that every act I do toward hurting Jews brings the freedom of Palestine closer. I just… I don’t see it happening.
To make matters worse, I haven’t heard from my leaders in more than a month. Some of their thugs are definitely out in the streets “maintaining law and order,” by which I mean shaking people down for “protection” money, or just beating them up outright. Those men don’t seem the type to want to answer any inquiries I might have about my predicament.
There’s plenty of food; I eat my fill, then throw out anything beyond the bare minimum to keep the Jew alive. The thing is, I don’t know how to measure my contribution to a Free Palestine. If I killed the Jew right now, wouldn’t that accomplish that same thing as all the trouble I’ve taken not to kill him until now?
I understand the logic of the bargaining chip, but it was announced a while ago that any attempt to rescue Israelis will result in the killing of captive Israelis. I’m not sure how valuable that makes my bargaining chip. The whole business plan has shifted in ways I did not anticipate. I need to know how much closer I am to freeing Palestine every time I whip that subhuman.
Or I might have to stop, and nobody wants that.
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